
Being realistic with yourself is probably the most important parts of growth, yet one of the most unrealistic tasks to conquer. Often times we find ourselves with a vision of this A-list version of ourselves while we’re staring at the Z-list reality in the mirror, losing who we are, or thought we were, in the midst of ‘the chase.’ The harsh reality of all this is always the shoulder shrug moment of, ‘what the fuck do I do now?’
It’s relatable to the moment when you become so overwhelmed with the minute shit that you just lay down and decide to deal with it tomorrow, or the day after – creating a problem more than necessary. It’s this moment when we have to recognize the need to pivot.
Just because the path doesn’t look the way we planned it, doesn’t mean the destination isn’t the same.
Sometimes, more times than some actually, we have to know when to take a step back and actually pay attention to the mirror versus just looking at the reflection. The most narrowest of change in our ‘perfect plan’ could be the make or break when it comes to its success. For the first time ever probably, I can say I haven’t seen my life heading into the detour that it has, but I can’t say I didn’t know that I’d end up with the same great result.
& what fucks me up even more is everything that’s bringing me the happiness, prospective success, and fulfillment is all attributes I’ve been sitting with daily. Not something I was chasing, not something that I was attempting, all things that I just had to slow down and look at.

The photos in this set I took a little over a year ago, when I just knew I had it all planned out. Where my life was headed. The consistency I was going to maintain. How I wanted my career to pan out. The whole nine – and shortly after taking these photos I lost one of the biggest deals critical to my career at that current state. I completely lost myself. No-one had knew because I kept my ‘fronts’ up, but that ultimately made it worse. I continued to spiral until essentially there was no where left fall to. And trust me, it’s true what they say about rock bottom – but being here currently has completely re-aligned who I am. Forced me to pivot, but still – not until I was ready. Not until I wanted to. Not until I wanted to help myself. That alone, has been the reward itself. The fight. The push through. The perseverance. Being able to say I DID THAT regardless of where you’re at in the marathon. THAT’S what makes you hungry! Motivates you. Makes you want more. The good old fashioned fight for it. Had I not pivoted my vision and still trying to do the same thing, I would’ve still been trying to pour into a bottomless glass.

Things never happen when we want them to, or even when we need them to – but when they’re supposed to and always right on time. The key is knowing who you are, so that no one can tell you who they want you to be.

Gratitude. Faith. Consciousness.
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